The real art exists in the encounter, not the object.

This place is a working and ever-evolving record of one psychiatrist's exploration of new, old, and strange ways of thinking about psychiatry.

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Why this exists

To explore, to be curious, to grow, to change, to try, to feel, and to be.

“Polarize me, sensitize me
Criticize me, civilize me
Compensate me, animate me
Complicate me, elevate me.Rush, “Animate”

AI is a tool. A strange one, a powerful one, and one about which most of us are unsure how to feel. This site is a working experiment in how I (a psychiatrist) is using AI for improving education, writing, research, clinical work, and even as a medium of self expression.

(My dear viewer. I am aware this is starting to sound a little culty. I promise nothing is being sold, no one is being recruited. There is no billion year contract. There are no weird, ignominious carnal coercions. And there certainly is no newsletter. It's just a website. My art project website.)

Most of what's here is meant to be touched. Drag the sliders. Mark the boxes. The pieces are written to be completed, not just read.

None of this is a pitch. It's a record of what's being built, and a small argument for leaning into the unknown.

Whose Ship Is This Now?

Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd.Voltaire

Something bothers us about this particular tool. The interesting question is not whether the bothering is justified — it is what the bothering might be about.

Imagine telling a friend they're cheating because they used TurboTax. Or that a carpenter who reaches for a nail gun isn't a real craftsman. Or that the farmer who climbs onto a tractor has lost touch with the soil. We'd find it strange. Tools are tools — we've spent the last several thousand years building them precisely so we don't have to do every difficult thing the hard way.

And yet, somehow, when the tool is AI, something shifts. The writer who used it to draft an email is lazy. The student who used it to outline an essay has cheated. The developer who used it to scaffold a project didn't really build the thing. The feeling these words carry is familiar — it belongs to an older emotional register, the one reserved for work we think ought to have cost more.

There is something worth sitting with here. Not because the feeling is wrong, and not because it is right, but because feelings like this tend to be about more than what they name. What is the suspicion protecting? What is it anxious to preserve? What older question is it trying, in its way, to answer?

These are not questions a checklist can settle, and they are older than AI. People have been asking some version of them every time a tool arrives that changes what a person is capable of being. Before we look at how they've asked it — and how often they got it wrong, which is in some ways beside the point — sit with the question itself, in five movements.

i.
The Original Puzzle

A ship quietly becoming itself.

The Athenians preserved Theseus's ship by replacing each rotting plank as it failed. After enough years, no original wood remained. The wheel below represents the vessel's planks — each one ages, is replaced, and begins its own slow aging again. Watch it move on its own, or drag the slider to travel through its years yourself.

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ii.
The Puzzle Turned Inward

A figure of circulating matter, never the same twice.

Your skin renews every few weeks. Your skeleton, every decade. The atoms that composed the "you" of childhood are scattered across continents now — breathed out, washed away, recomposed into other people and other things. By the strict standard of material continuity, you are not the person who began reading this sentence. And yet something in you insists that you are.

The figure below is made of moving particles. They appear, drift through the form, and dissolve back into the field. Every few moments, nothing visible in it is what was there before. The shape remains.

Watch it circulate on its own, or drag through your years yourself — and then ask the question Plutarch asked, turned inward.

If you cannot name the year you stopped being you, the puzzle is not really about cells. It is about what we mean by same.

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iii.
The Puzzle in New Clothing

So when did the AI do it instead of you?

The same question, fitted to our own moment. Authorship may never quite have been a binary — and what if it is something more like a position on a dial, a position that moves with every decision you make? Mark what is true of your work, and notice what the dial reflects back.

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waiting
— A reading
The dial is waiting. Mark what is true, and let it give you something to sit with.
iv.
The Mirror in the Tool

A reading is also a writing.

Whatever the dial gave you was partly about your work and partly about you. The questions you answered with confidence and the questions you answered with a flinch — the AI didn't write either set. The dial only reflected what it was handed. The reading is yours.

This is true of more than the dial. It is true of the whole site you have been moving through. Some readers lingered at Theseus's ship; others scrolled past. Some hovered over the chaos button without pushing. Some pushed it. Some read the projects and saw a clinician working seriously; others saw a clinician overreaching. The piece itself did not change. What changed was who arrived at it.

What this site tells you about AI is partly what it actually says, and partly what you brought with you when you opened it. The fear, the optimism, the suspicion of hype, the hunger for a new tool, the reflex against new tools — those were here before you arrived. The site does not produce them. It surfaces them.

Which is, in its way, the deepest thing the dial was ever going to tell you. Not what percentage of the work was yours. But how much of the answer you supplied before the question was asked.

v.
The Questions This Doesn't Answer

And then, the harder questions.

The dial gave you a reading. The reading is honest enough, as readings go. But it was built on assumptions inherited from a world where the only thing that could co-author with you was another person — a colleague, an editor, a teacher, a ghostwriter. Whatever the AI is, it is not quite any of those things, and we do not yet have a steady word for what it is instead.

So perhaps the dial is not wrong, exactly. Perhaps it is asking the wrong questions — or asking right questions in a vocabulary that was built for an older kind of collaboration.

  • What does it mean to supply the central idea when the idea itself was shaped by months of conversation with a system that has read more than any human ever will?
  • Do we need a new vocabulary — words that exist between "I made this" and "the AI made this," because the old binary no longer fits the work?
  • When the tool can think alongside you, does the line between author and instrument matter the way it used to — or are we watching the slow merging of two kinds of mind into a third kind we don't yet have a name for?
  • And the you who collaborated with the AI to make this thing — was that you the same you who will live with the consequences six months from now, or a slightly different one, the way every “you” is slightly different from the one before? If authorship can survive the body's renewal, can it not also survive the help of a machine?
  • And if this is the beginning of that merging — quietly, in millions of small collaborations, one prompt at a time — what should we do with that knowledge while we still have the words to describe it?

These are not questions a checklist can settle. They are the questions every previous generation faced, in a smaller form, every time a new tool arrived and changed what a person was capable of being. Some of what they worried about was real. Some of it was displacement — older anxieties finding a new surface to land on. It is hard, in the middle of a change, to tell which is which.

That may be what makes the wondering matter.

The line has always been blurry. Every generation has encountered some new thing that threatened to dissolve it, and every generation has had to figure out — often badly, often in public — what the new thing was actually changing and what was only a shadow on the wall of the change. A brief tour of how we've wondered before:

c. 370 BCE
Writing
"This invention will produce forgetfulness in the minds of those who learn to use it."
— Socrates, via Plato's Phaedrus
Writing went on to preserve essentially all of human knowledge, including this complaint.
1830s
The Locomotive
Physicians warned that speeds above 30 mph would cause the brain to rattle, the uterus to fly out, and "railway madness" to set in.
— 19th-century medical press
Trains now travel at 200+ mph. Uteri have remained in place.
1890s
The Bicycle
Medical journals diagnosed "bicycle face" — a permanently flushed, hardened, masculine expression acquired by women who rode.
— Contemporary medical press
Women kept riding. Their faces were fine. Their mobility was, rather pointedly, the actual concern.
1906
Recorded Music
"The menace of mechanical music... a marked deterioration in American music and musical taste."
— John Philip Sousa
Recorded music created the largest popular music culture in human history.
1982
The Synthesizer
The UK Musicians' Union formally resolved to ban synthesizers and drum machines. Queen stamped "No Synthesizers!" on their albums as a purity certificate.
— Musicians' Union resolution, 1982
Synth-pop, house, techno, ambient, hip-hop — most popular music of the last 40 years runs on the "banned" instruments.
1980s–today
Sampling & Hip-Hop
"Rap music isn't really music." — Ben Shapiro, 2019, reciting a script from the 1920s with the words lightly changed.
— And jazz critics before him, calling it "musical cannibalism"
Hip-hop is now the most-streamed genre on Earth and has been for years.

None of the original critics were fools. They were credentialed, serious people. They were also, with some consistency, surprised by what the new tool turned out to be for — and sometimes surprised by what they themselves turned out to be for, once they had it. Humans do not stay still when a new tool arrives. We adapt; the tool gets absorbed; something new comes out the other side that neither party fully predicted.

The plow did not make the farmer less of a farmer. The sampler did not make the producer less of an artist. What AI will make of the clinician — or what the clinician will make of AI, or what both, together, will make of the work — is a thing we are presently finding out.

Current work

Projects, in progress and in practice.

What can be asserted without evidence can also be dismissed without evidence.Christopher Hitchens

01
Neuromodulation Education
Clinical resource · Live
Plain-language education on TMS, ECT, ketamine, VNS, and psychedelics. Written for patients trying to make a real decision and clinicians who want depth without the marketing gloss or the inherited stigma.
02
TMS: what it is, how we use it, and how AI helps us along the way
Grand rounds lecture · 2026
A grand rounds talk on transcranial magnetic stimulation — what it is, how we use it, where the evidence is going. Threaded through: a live demonstration of what AI collaboration actually looks like in a working psychiatrist's day.
03
Therapy For Me
Patient platform · In development
A platform that helps patients understand the actual landscape of psychotherapy — what exists, what fits, what to ask for — and connects them with therapists whose work matches what they're looking for. Built on the idea that fit matters as much as access.
Building
04
Case Report — ECT & the Oculocardiac Reflex
Peer-reviewed manuscript · In preparation
Cardiac arrhythmia following succinylcholine administration in a patient undergoing ECT with severe comorbid glaucoma. A proposed mechanism — acute IOP spike triggering a trigeminovagal reflex — and a glycopyrrolate prophylaxis protocol that allowed the course to be safely completed.
Building
05
Research — rTMS + Psilocybin for TRD
Grant proposal · In development
A proposed trial pairing rTMS with psilocybin for treatment-resistant depression. Builds on the D-cycloserine-augmented TMS paradigm and uses BDNF/TrkB-mediated plasticity as the mechanistic bridge — with the question of microdose versus macrodose treated as the empirical question it actually is.
Building
06
Conference Poster — AI in Neuromodulation
Academic poster · 2026
Where AI is meaningfully contributing to neuromodulation right now — targeting and fixation, data mining, treatment optimization across DBS and TMS — alongside an honest accounting of what it can't yet do and shouldn't be asked to.
Building
07
Frontotemporal Dementia — A Caregiver Companion
Web app · In development
A progressive web app for families caring for someone with frontotemporal dementia. Built around a Behavior Decoder — a way to look up what a difficult moment likely means at the neural level, what to try in the moment, and how to log what worked. Designed for the variants and behaviors that don't fit memory-focused tools: behavioral disinhibition, primary progressive aphasia, compulsive behaviors, apathy, sleep dysregulation. A working demonstration of what AI makes newly possible — clinically grounded, family-facing resources for a population that has been underserved by both medicine and the tools built around it.
Building
08
AIDA-Pilot — AI-Assisted Dialogue Augmentation in psychotherapy
Pilot study protocol · 2026
A pilot RCT protocol testing whether a structured 10-minute AI reflection window, embedded mid-session in standard outpatient psychotherapy, is feasible, acceptable, and safe. Two arms, therapist-stratified randomization, 48 clients across 6 therapists, 12 weekly sessions each. The AI sees prior-session summaries, current-session transcript, and recent symptom scores; the therapist selects from four prompt categories — pattern reflection, reframe, values clarification, skills practice — and retains full override at every step. Primary outcomes are feasibility and acceptability; PHQ-9, GAD-7, working alliance, session depth, and rupture coding are tracked to inform a definitive trial. Not a chatbot study, not an administrative-AI study — a first systematic look at AI as a participatory third voice inside the therapeutic dyad.
Drafting

AI & Art

Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.Carl Sagan

Most of what's written about AI in medicine is about efficiency. Faster notes, cleaner charts, better triage. That matters. It's also not the whole story.

AI can be an instrument — one that helps people manifest the thing they've carried for years and never quite knew how to get it out. Writers who weren't sure they were writers. Musicians who never really practiced but felt the music. Painters with no brushes. (Ok, OK — I think you, the reader, gets the point.) The bottleneck between imagination and expression is getting thinner, and that turns out to be its own quiet revolution.

This section (just like this very website) is a slow, ongoing exploration and experiment of what that means — and what psychiatrists, of all people, might have to say about it. Disclaimer: No 5ht2a receptor agonists were used in the conceptualization, creation or editing of this website.

imagination · interface · expression
Ongoing — an open thread
Pieces

This website.

“I'm reaching up and reaching out.
I'm reaching for the random
or whatever will bewilder me.
Whatever will bewilder me.Tool, “Lateralus”

This page is itself the demonstration — built end-to-end through psychiatrist-AI collaboration, including the part you're reading right now. Code, copy, visual design. The content created here wouldn't exist in this form without the tools we so curiously explore and with which we experiment. Below is an interactive demonstration of what happens when you remove the substrate from a thing made of code.

The Map

The people who got me here.

Family, mentors, and the long lineage of voices that taught me how to think, how to make, and why it matters.

W
E
K
Dr. Joshua Bess neuromodulation mentor
Dr. Daniel Maixner neuromodulation mentor
Razor Ray the one who taught me to shred
The Watchers
Carl Sagan the cosmos as humility Neil deGrasse Tyson the cosmos, made conversational Sean Carroll quantum reality, made livable Hugh Everett every possible world, all at once
The Cartographers
Arthur C. Clarke the cosmic as moral question Isaac Asimov what machines owe us Ray Kurzweil the long arc of intelligence Rudy Rucker consciousness as transferable substance
The Builders
Kurt Gödel the limits of any system, proven from inside it Claude Shannon information as the fundamental currency Richard Feynman don't fool yourself Strunk & White omit needless words Dr. Jim Dahle the financial education physicians never got
The Skeptics
Baruch Spinoza geometry as ethics Voltaire doubt as dignity Mark Twain epistemic humility as a literary style Christopher Hitchens argument as moral act Richard Dawkins the gene's-eye view
The Bombthrowers
George Carlin language against bullshit Bill Hicks truth as performance art Doug Stanhope the comedian who refuses to flinch Rage Against the Machine political fury made into rhythm
The Tragic Maker
J. Robert Oppenheimer the one whose creation exceeded his control
The Excavators
Carl Jung the shadow as serious material Albert Camus peace inside the absurd Charlie Brooker technology's quiet moral arithmetic Katherine Dunn the holy freakshow Chuck Palahniuk the body as battleground
The Heart-Keepers
Khalil Gibran tenderness without sentimentality Maynard James Keenan the metaphysical inside the heavy Neil Peart the drummer as philosopher
The Joker
The Dude abiding, as philosophical stance
At the center W · E · K
The ones who trained me Dr. Joshua Bess neuromodulation mentor Dr. Daniel Maixner neuromodulation mentor Razor Ray the one who taught me to shred
The Watchers Carl Sagan the cosmos as humility Neil deGrasse Tyson the cosmos, made conversational Sean Carroll quantum reality, made livable Hugh Everett every possible world, all at once
The Cartographers Arthur C. Clarke the cosmic as moral question Isaac Asimov what machines owe us Ray Kurzweil the long arc of intelligence Rudy Rucker consciousness as transferable substance
The Builders Kurt Gödel the limits of any system, proven from inside it Claude Shannon information as the fundamental currency Richard Feynman don't fool yourself Strunk & White omit needless words Dr. Jim Dahle the financial education physicians never got
The Skeptics Baruch Spinoza geometry as ethics Voltaire doubt as dignity Mark Twain epistemic humility as a literary style Christopher Hitchens argument as moral act Richard Dawkins the gene's-eye view
The Bombthrowers George Carlin language against bullshit Bill Hicks truth as performance art Doug Stanhope the comedian who refuses to flinch Rage Against the Machine political fury made into rhythm
The Tragic Maker J. Robert Oppenheimer the one whose creation exceeded his control
The Excavators Carl Jung the shadow as serious material Albert Camus peace inside the absurd Charlie Brooker technology's quiet moral arithmetic Katherine Dunn the holy freakshow Chuck Palahniuk the body as battleground
The Heart-Keepers Khalil Gibran tenderness without sentimentality Maynard James Keenan the metaphysical inside the heavy Neil Peart the drummer as philosopher
The Joker The Dude abiding, as philosophical stance
Further reading

An invitation, before you go.

We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.T.S. Eliot

A working collection of voices, books, and films — the ones that have shaped how I think about intelligence, mind, and what we are becoming. Or maybe what we have always been.

Enter the library
A doorway, and what waits beyond